one day.

"Long Nguyen" (12:19:03 PM): i have to eat
"Long Nguyen" (12:19:07 PM): i'll talk to you later babe.
"Long Nguyen" (12:19:12 PM): bye
xUHTHEENUH (12:19:17 PM): byee
"Long Nguyen" (12:19:17 PM): have a nice day
"Long Nguyen" (12:19:20 PM): and a nice life
xUHTHEENUH (12:19:24 PM): okay just eat.
"Long Nguyen" (12:19:28 PM): one day
"Long Nguyen" (12:19:30 PM: i will return
"Long Nguyen" (12:19:38 PM): when the moon is eclipsing the sun
"Long Nguyen" (12:19:40 PM): and the stars
"Long Nguyen" (12:19:42 PM): are lined up
"Long Nguyen" (12:19:45 PM): in an exact order
xUHTHEENUH (12:19:46 PM): alright.
xUHTHEENUH (12:19:48 PM): i'll wait.
"Long Nguyen" (12:19:48 PM): that only happens
"Long Nguyen" (12:19:57 PM): once every sixteen thousand seventy two years
"Long Nguyen" (12:20:01 PM): and as a sign
"Long Nguyen" (12:20:07 PM): a bear and a shark will wrestle
"Long Nguyen" (12:20:17 PM): and stanley will wear blue
xUHTHEENUH (12:20:24 PM): haha
xUHTHEENUH (12:20:29 PM): i'm never seeing you againnnnn
"Long Nguyen" (12:20:33 PM): haha
"Long Nguyen" (12:20:36 PM): that communist
"Long Nguyen" (12:20:38 PM): bye!
xUHTHEENUH (12:20:42 PM): bye!



hahaha, oh stanley. back to studying!

haircut gossip.

apparently, everytime he comes to get his hair cut and his girlfriend is with him, she always stares at people while she waits. "it's cause she's ugly. hehehe." hawaiian gardens is way ghetto. ghettoer than any other place on earth. a policeman got shot point-blank. the anniversary was a couple weeks ago. but no one will shoot the lady cutting my hair cause her grandma will evict all of them. the reason you're supposed to say your name when you answer the phone is so that people can complain about you if they don't like you. "cypress supercuts. my name is ashley. how may i help you?" oh, and pretending to sound korean is easier than you think.

wizard swears.

hahah, this made me happy.

sunday morning.

actually, it was really wednesday afternoon. she was sitting in her room. breeze coming through the window. dog rolling around in her bed. happy. it was just one of those moments where she took the time to stop and think. the good kind of thinking though. not the kind that gets her all confused. life is good. wait, no. amazing. yeah, the good kind.

what got her into this mood, you ask? well, it might have been the sound of her mom listening to maroon 5 in the living room and having it slip sweetly through the cracks into her own room. it might have been the fact that she could be getting a new puppy on friday. i might have been the anticipation for an exciting weekend. it might have been the satisfying feeling of not being behind in summer homework. it might have been realizing that this is probably one of the funnest summers she's had so far. i might have been because, well...

just cause.

the little things.

"Christine Parker" (12:26:30 PM): ATHENA!!!!!!!!!
"Christine Parker" (12:26:35 PM): I was looking for someone to IM.

"Christine Parker" (12:26:39 PM): And I thought... DUDE.

"Christine Parker" (12:26:42 PM): I need Athena :]

on a scale of 1 - 10.... i have amazing friends.

(p.s. christina, if you get a chance to read this, I MISS YOUUUU! come home. now. thanks. chop chop!)

what matters.

i do not care what car you drive or where you live. if you know someone who knows someone who knows someone. if your clothes are this year's cutting edge. if your trust fund is unlimited. if you are A-list or B-list or never heard of you list. i only care about the words that flutter from your mind. they are the only thing you truly own. the only thing i will remember you by. i will not fall in love with your bones and skin. i will not fall in love with the places you have been. i will not fall in love with anything but the words that flutter from your extraordinary mind.

i am.

i am strong because i am weak. i am beautiful because i know my flaws. i am a lover because i am a fighter. i am fearless because i have been afraid. i am wise because i have been foolish. and i can laugh because i have known sadness.

all or nothing.

i must be dreaming.

"tell me that you love me and it'll be alright.
are you thinking of me?
just come with me tonight.
you know i need you.
just like you need me.
can't stop, won't stop, i must be dreaming.
can't stop, won't stop, i must be dreaming..."

mixed up.

lately, i've been a little confused. i've been mixing up my dreams with reality and reality with my dreams. i dream and think it actually happened later on in the day. then i realize it was all in my head. somewhat disappointing since i liked what happened in my dream, but what can you do. but then i do things in real life and think about it later on and wonder if i had just dreamt it. sometimes it's hard to know what to believe when you're mind keeps playing tricks on you.

but it's just the heat. i swear it's just the heat.

cloud 9.

care to join me? :)

one of these days.

one of these days, i will ride in a hot air balloon. one of these days, i will get over my fear of ferris wheels. one of these days, i will be brave enough to tell you i miss you. one of these days, i will bike to the beach. one of these days, i will stay up to watch the sunrise. one of these days, i will clean the mess that is my room. one of these days, i will realize just how much you mean to me. one of these days, i will watch all three of the godfathers. one of these days, i will get my hair cut. one of these days, i will get a new phone. one of these days, i will go horseback riding. one of these days, i will become a better person. one of these days, i will understand why.

to the rescue.

it was 7:00 at night and she was lying in bed getting ready to take a nap. then the office theme song starts to play. she grabs her phone and reads the text message she just received. less than 15 minutes later, she's out the door and off to see a friend in need of her company. during the car ride there, she thought to herself. how lucky she is to have friends that call her when they're down and out and need someone to make them happy. how lucky she is indeed.

she gets dropped off, walks into the building, and spots her friend. then a grin appears on both of their faces. she walks through another door past the hustle and bustle of grown-ups, and gives her friend a hug. it's funny. you don't know how much you miss something until it's actually standing right in front of you. after not seeing her for an entire week, it's safe to say she missed her.

they went to the back and talked for a little while. okay well, talked a little, laughed a lot. "you guys have been with each other for 10 minutes and you're already laughing your heads off." pretty much.

in the end, she wasn't the one who rescued her friend from going crazy. her friend rescued her. without even knowing she needed to be rescued.

random.

sitting in the living room. no fan blowing. just music playing. feeling a little sticky. thinking random thoughts...

today is the 10th day of summer vacation. i woke up late this morning. and i only woke up cause someone texted me. i hate waking up late. makes me feel gross. it's 2:42 right now. don't know if that statement served any purpose, but oh well. i want to see wall-e really badly. i watch waaay too many movies for my own good. i've already spent a good amount of my time in the movie theaters. not that i'm complaining. movies make me happy. like mangoes and late night phone calls. speaking of late nights, i've been having many of those lately. but okay, for me, late nights are nights that i stay up until 2 in the morning. yes, that's late. but many people stay up a lot later. ridiculous. anywho, it's getting kind of hot. need to go to the beach again. soon. my mom is watching jersey girl right now. i feel like watching.

going through pictures.

i'm gonna miss this class. protection squad! (+ jameson)
and this class! i swear...if we're not in the same VE class...
oh, and. i'm gonna miss this girl.
but september is a ways away. and today is a good day.

hello, old friend.

hiii. remember me? yeah. i haven't posted in a while. clearly. 25 days to be exact (holy crap). but trust me, i thought it had been a looot longer. felt like at least 2 months since my last post. i'm not exactly sure why i haven't been writing here for so long. i retreated back to writing on random scraps of paper and doodling on the backs of worksheets just because it was more convenient. i don't know. i guess maybe there was just too much to write about? i doubt any of it would have made sense to anyone else anyway.

so here is a post for the sake of posting. a post about how i never post anymore. exciting, i know. i'll be back later. it'll be better.

so close.

6/4: counselor meeting during 7th.
6/6: rona's birthday!
6/7: victoria's birthday/rona's party/babysitting.
6/9: i swear there's something happening this day...
6/11: committee banquet.
6/13: friday the 13th! haha.
6/14: olive garden with committee/key club bonfire.
6/16: senior graduation.
6/17: last day of school! bonfire<3
6/18: babysitting hannah & jordan, again!
6/24: shane's birthday!

& something not so close...
8/30: SLEEPOVER/BABY SHOWER!! so freaking excited. =)

fate.

a little story of how things just seemed to work out...

committee applications were due friday, may 23. i had thought about it for a long time and i was iffy on whether or not i really wanted to do committee again. i don't really understand why i couldn't make up my mind. but the twenty-third rolled around and i didn't turn in an application. i was apathetic about it all so i didn't really care. then over that weekend, i started thinking. then i asked myself: what was i thinking? how could i possibly not want to be on committee again? especially for senior year. honestly, athena? what were you thinking?

but it was too late. jake told people that if they didn't turn in an application on friday, they could e-mail one to him over the weekend. the weekend was over. it was late. so i just went to bed. full of regret.

then tuesday night i was talking to jake and asked him about applications and stuff. then he told me something that made absolutely no sense: "don't worry. kat got your application." and of course, the only thing i could think of to say was, "...what?" he told me that kat got my application, but she lost it. i told him i didn't even turn in an application. so he just told me not to worry about it because i was already on the interview list.

i had my interview at 3:56 on thursday afternoon. it went perfectly. i am now comfortably in the 2009 senior class committee. i don't know why i cared so much about this. but i did and i do. and i'm still wondering how kat even thought she got my application. i guess...

it's fate.

unfair.

"let's just put it this way: i've been praying. i don't pray."
i can't believe they're doing this to her. you can't just do this to a person. it's not fair. she told me that for the first time, she's finally found a place she loves coming to. and now...they just decide that they're gonna ship her off somewhere else? and they tell her that she should be happy that she still has a job, but that's the stupidest thing i've ever heard. how do you expect someone to be happy about this situation at all?

maybe i don't understand the logistics of it all, but what i do understand is that i don't want her to leave. i hate it when people leave. it's not fair. she belongs here.

sleepfest.

so last night i was pretty tired from my day and decided to take a little nap. but i guess i didn't realize how tired i really was. it was around 8:00 or 8:15 or something and i hopped in bed. just in case i didn't wake myself up, i set my alarm for 10:15. and just in case that didn't work, i set my away message to "nap. someone wake me up at 10." with everything set and ready to go, i put on my maroon 5 playlist and shut my eyes.

...athena didn't open her eyes until about 20 minutes ago. the alarm didn't wake her up. the phone calls didn't wake her up. the text messages didn't wake her up. the instant messages didn't wake her up. nothing woke her up. she was knocked out.

11 hours of sleep. impressive, athena. impressive.

movie ruiner.

never in my life have a wanted to shove a bucket of popcorn in someone's face more than i did today. i went to go watch narnia this afternoon at cerritos mall and discovered the most annoying movie-goer on the face of this earth - maybe even in the entire universe. the movie was going along perfectly fine and this guy (plus friends that were not anywhere near as annoying) came in a little while into the movie. he seemed normal except he ate his popcorn kind of obnoxiously. shoving handful after handful into his huge mouth and sipping his drink kind of loudly. didn't think much of it and tried to ignore it. then...he decided to open his mouth.

"this is stupid. that was so fake. that was retarded. this is boring. i wanna leave." i wish he would've just kept eating his stupid popcorn. and to add to all of his annoying comments, he was making me feel a bit uncomfortable because he was hogging the armrest and leaning way too close to me. and when he wasn't blubbering and complaining or eating his popcorn, he was picking his teeth to get pieces of popcorn out of them. extremely disgusting.

i wanted to leave so badly. but i controlled myself and sat in my seat the entire movie like a good little girl. i just wish azlan would've come out of the movie screen and eaten that guy right up. i swear, it would've turned it into the best movie i had ever seen in my life.