maybe.

maybe i should start my homework. maybe i should figure out what i really want for my birthday. maybe i already know the answer. maybe i should learn how to be more patient. maybe i should be more careful with my things. maybe i should just care a little more. maybe i shouldn't be so easily influenced. maybe i should try a little harder. maybe i eat too much. maybe you inspire me. maybe something's wrong with me. maybe i don't care. maybe i need you more than you think i do. maybe i take you for granted. maybe i should try doing as much for you as you do for me. maybe this is as good as it's gonna get. maybe i like it that way. maybe i should stop saying maybe...

don’t you hate it when you ask someone a specific question and all you get back is a simple maybe? i mean, maybe can go both ways if you don’t know who you’re talking to. for some people, it’s easy to distinguish whether or not their maybe is either a yes or a no. but in those circumstances that you find yourself in which involve you and someone else who is known to be indecipherable with their expressions and you need an answer right away, a maybe could essentially drive you insane, correct? i apologize to those of you out there that i have flustered because of my constant “maybe’s” and “i don’t know’s”. but i have to say that the word maybe has been an essential part of my vocabulary for as long as i can remember. without it, i would have to make decisions right away. and we all know that’s as close to impossible as we can ever get. additionally, if i didn’t have this word in my vocabulary, i’d actually have to learn how to say no to people. you ask me for a simple favor, i’ll do it for you. even if i don’t really have the time for it. i’ll squeeze it in somehow. and then all those simple favors turn into one huge mess i have to fix by fulfilling what i said i would do. in a sense, this word is like a lifesaver. but on the other hand, i beat around the bush with this word, too. hence the fact that i've made a resolution to say/do what i really want without any further hesitation. so, try asking again and maybe i’ll give you a clearer answer.