what's the word?

september 6, 2007: we walk onto campus as juniors. but today, august, 14, 2007, as i walked onto campus for packet pick-up, i soo did not feel like a junior. it hasn't hit me yet. i guess i just need that extra 23 days in between to get me ready (and my schedule). but i know it'll hit once they pile on the homework and the teachers get all "SAT! COLLEGE! GRADES! EXTRA CURRICULAR ACTIVITIES! MORE SAT!" on us. it's just that i wish every school day would be like how today was...

you walk onto campus and do what you need to do (which was picking up packets today), wait for friends to show up, talk/have fun, hang out with really cool teachers, and not have to worry about anything. ah, if only school were that simple. it's not that i dread school starting because really i don't (i promise). it's just that i'm __________. i can't exactly fill in the blank. worried? tired? apathetic? i don't know. something. you know?

this year will be different, no doubt. but hey, change happens. to sum up the very wise words i received from mr. ramirez today: "yeah, change happens. people don't like it, but it happens. you just gotta go with it and, well, change with it. it's the only way you'll grow." i gotta learn to adapt...

but yay for seeing mr. viramontes today, too! and of all the days that ms. sizer wasn't at school, it had to be today. booo. oh well. i was dreading telling her jeff's not coming back anyway. she's gonna go ballistic. i should hide all her markers.