Thursday, September 28, 2006

this bitter taste won't go away.

rOnaMaGlian [8:36:19 PM]: is being too nice a bad thing sometimes?

same problem at the exact same time; once again. are we too nice? is there even such thing as too nice? i never thought so. but, now, i don't know. i'm not saying i'm gonna stop being nice or whatever it is that i'm doing, cause that's not who i am. but i'm just wondering how by doing a good thing, such as being nice, can get you into a situation that you don't wanna deal with. is this my fault? should this be my fault? i've done nothing wrong. but it feels like i have. cause when you're nice to someone, you expect them to be nice to you too, right? sometimes i forget that. at the moment, i think i'm the most misleading person in the entire world. i don't mean to be though. i promise. i'm not gonna go off and be mean and stuff, but how do you get someone to give you space? how do you distance yourself from someone without completely shutting them out? my head hurts. =(

Sunday, September 17, 2006

que sera, sera.

haven't you ever wished that you had a fast forward button in life? or maybe just a time machine? you know, just to see if this is all worth it? i know i have. i wouldn't need the time machine to go back to the past though. just into the future. cause i've learned you shouldn't try to change the past. things happen for a reason. i've always believed that. it's just that no one can ever predict the future. and it's the uncertainty of it all that i'm not exactly content with. but now you know what i've learned? embrace the uncertainty. yes, embrace it. allow it to lead you places. great places. be brave as it challenges you to exercise both your heart and your mind as you create your own path towards happiness. don't waste time with regret. spin wildly into your next action. enjoy the present, each moment, as it comes. cause you'll never get another one quite like it. and if you should ever look up and find yourself lost, simply take a breath and start over. go back to the good times. but don't live in memories. create new ones. live life one step at a time. rushing through it will get you nowhere. well, it'll get you somewhere, but you'll have no idea how you got there. and that's no fun. sometimes we take what we have now for granted cause we're waiting for something better to come along. but we can't live in the future. so, with all this thinking, i am left with one last wish: to know exactly what i want.

Monday, September 11, 2006


always remember.

What lesson did you hope to teach us by your coward's attack on our World Trade Center, our Pentagon, us?
What was it you hoped we would learn?
Whatever it was, please know that you failed.
Did you want us to respect your cause?
You just lost your cause.
Did you want to make us fear?
You just steeled our resolve.
Did you want to tear us apart?
You just brought us together...
So I ask again: What was it you hoped to teach us?
It occurs to me that maybe you just wanted us to know the depths of your hatred.
If that's the case, consider the message received. And take this message in exchange:
You don't know my people. You don't know what we're capable of.
You don't know what you just started.
But you're about to learn.

~~ Leonard Pitts Jr., 12 Sep 2001
"We'll go forward from this Moment" in Miami Herald