Thursday, August 30, 2007


in the past two days, i have been at the mall for a total of 12 and a half hours. tuesday was from 1:00pm to 5:00pm and wednesday was from 10:30am to 7:00pm. i spent a good amount of money and it was all for school stuff. i love back to school shopping! especially with friends. and both times i was at the mall, i ended up eating a lot. it was jameson's fault on tuesday cause he was the one who bought me the smoothie and cookies, but on wednesday i just couldn't resist goldilocks. i was ridiculously full after that meal. you have no idea. it even gave me stomach pains afterwards while me, christina, and rona were walking around target O_o but whatever. it was worth it.

and then yay sleepover! i kinda feel bad cause i didn't go swimming with gerard, but he's over it. haha. but really, i love spending the night at christina's house. i don't even know if she knows that, but i do. one: because her mom feeds me like no other and B: because WE HAVE SO MUCH FUN. who knew playing with a deck of cards could be so much fun without actually playing with the cards. ridiculous.

and then this morning we watched disturbia cause shane brought it over and i's actually a pretty good movie. i was able to focus on everything cause i wasn't freaking out about what was gonna happen next since i already saw it. and i must admit i liked it. yay for not being scared of old creepy men in movies.

but uhh...yea. i still don't do scary movies. just so you know.


Monday, August 27, 2007


"we are not the same person this year as last; nor are those we love. it is a happy chance if we, changing, continue to love a changed person." -w. somerset maugham

mr. yell-as-loud-as-humanly-possible.

HAHA THIS COMPLETELY WOKE ME UP. i find the strangest things soo amusing...

Wednesday, August 22, 2007


to me, a day that would prove to be successful is a day that is lived to it's fullest extent. a day that literally leaves you sore from all the things that were done throughout those waking hours. for me, i have been awake for more hours than could possibly be healthy (considering i only had 3 hours of sleep), but despite my complete hatred of my alarm clock for ringing at 6:00 in the morning, i have managed to make today quite the adventure.

the night before i stayed up until 3:00 in the morning playing pool online with gerard (new goal in life: beat him fair and square and not because he shoots the 8-ball in). and let me tell you, that game is ridiculously addicting. anyway, my alarm goes off at 6:00 this morning, so i turn it off and accidentally fall back asleep for another 30 minutes. whoops :) (but those 30 minutes could very well be the reason i didn't pass out during the day). i got to school at around 7:10 and committee set up for the carwash. i had lots and lots of fun. it was a little slow in the beginning, but near the end we got a lot more cars. yay. it was a good 5 hours of work. although i wasn't working the whole time. CAN I HAVE YO NUMBAAH?!? hahaha. and just so you all know, kim shouldn't be working at juice it up. she needs to be a salesperson or something. hahaha. she has great tactics ;D

so then after we cleaned up, shane took me, rona, and gerard to starbucks and gaby followed in her car. then shane dropped off gerard at his house and on the way there shane became lane-changing happy. i felt bad for gaby cause she didn't know where she was going and she was just following shane. hahahah. but anyway, then shane dropped me off at school and my dad picked me up at 1.

while i was at home and sitting in front of the computer, i was really really hyper and wanted to get out soo badly. so i looked out my window and realized that it was good running weather. i mean, it was hot but there was a nice wind, so i went for it. got out at 1:30 and ran for a little over an hour (not the whole time of course). went from my house to del taco, then back to school, then around the school, then back home. i took lots of stops though. it felt really good. except for the part where i got a really bad side cramp. oh well. and within that one hour, i managed to create two new tans -_- a sports bra tan and a tank top tan. gahhh. now i have three. whatever. hopefully those two will go away on friday. (ahhhh, friday! :DDD)

so i came home and showered cause i felt disgusting. did stuff and then took a nap cause i was BEAT. woke up at around 5:30-ish and got ready to go hang out with kimly (finally). i got to bpm at 7:00 and walked around with my mom and sister for a while, then left them to go buy tickets. i walked out to where krikorian was and my ears were bombarded with music of some band that was performing there. it was weird. haha. so kimly shows up and we start walking to our theater and then some guy passes by us and he looks at me and he's like "hey." and i just look at him and give a little nod or whatever and me and kimly keep walking and then he's like "you're cute" and i was like..."thanks". and proceeded to walk at a faster pace. EW x 1,000,000,000,000.

becoming jane turned out to be cute, but really sad. haha. and the previews before were really good. yay. (something to remember: never make me miss previews!) and that was basically the end of my day. i loved today. and i never want summer to end :( fat chance though, considering this is registration week and all. meaning: school is in the near future. boooo. oh well. FRIDAY!

lesson of the day: the good really does always outweigh the bad :)

sooner or later, right?

eh. i'm used to it by now. i'll just pretend they never had anything to tell me in the first place. i don't really wanna worry about things that are nonexistent at the moment.

i need the beach =/

Sunday, August 19, 2007

la da da da.

"i’m tugging at my hair. i’m pulling at my clothes. i’m trying to keep my cool. i know it shows. i’m staring at my feet. my cheeks are turning red. i’m searching for the words inside my head. cause i’m feeling nervous trying to be so perfect. cause i know you’re worth it, you’re worth it. if i could say what i want to say, i'd say i wanna blow you away. be with you every night. am i squeezing you too tight? if i could see what i want to see, i want to see you go down on one knee. marry me today. guess i’m wishing my life away. with these things i’ll never say..."

the "old" avril is so much better than the "new" one.

Saturday, August 18, 2007


i got looked at in "3-D" today. i found it strangely amusing.

Friday, August 17, 2007


"i will!"

is it true that the things you think about most during the day are somehow part of your dreams at night? cause i'd believe that. the dream i had last night was immensely realistic. i'm still in shock. if i wasn't 100% sure that it was a dream, i would've believed that it actually happened...

and more than anything right now i wish what happened in my dream would happen in real life. it kinda sucks knowing that what i want can only happen in my dreams this time. and these are the kind of dreams you can't go chasing. what's done is done.

(i started this post at 11:11 hoping my dream would come true. and you know what i realized? i should stick to what i usually wish for.)

if i didn't like that dream so much, i'd hate it. ridiculous!

Wednesday, August 15, 2007


watching this video resulted in a silly grin plastered on my face and a big fat "AWWWW!" escaping my mouth. akjhgkasf it makes me wanna hug something.

Tuesday, August 14, 2007


as i sat on my bed--book out, highlighter in hand--i realized the words i was "reading" were not processing properly. i needed some inspiration. so naturally, i popped in legally blonde into my laptop and watched. major chick-flick, but really good. (plus i'm a big fan of reese witherspoon). the message it conveys to you is something you can take with you wherever you go. it shows you that you can do anything you want as long as you set your mind to it and if you have the determination to see it through. the way you carry yourself affects the way you live your life. you must have confidence. never falter. always stick to what you believe in. even if it feels as if the whole world is against you. if i learned anything from this movie, it's about conviction. you must have conviction.

so what if people think you're the ditziest person alive? who cares. it doesn't matter what other people think. as long as you believe in yourself. it always helps to have other people believe in you, but when it feel like they don't, there's nothing you can do except show them there's something in you worth believing.

i love this movie!

mm, otter pops.

basically, i think the heat is melting all of our brains. don't believe me? here's some proof: my mom was actually worried about me finishing my homework on time, despite the ridiculous heat i still wanted to run (dehydration? what's that?), my dog actually sat when i said "sit" instead of flopping on her back for a belly rub, and i am completely incapable of focusing on my summer assignment. eh, so the last one doesn't back my statement up very well considering that would happen even if i lived in antarctica, but still. my brain is feeling a tad mushy. i think we should all move into an igloo. anyone got any connections with an eskimo?

what's the word?

september 6, 2007: we walk onto campus as juniors. but today, august, 14, 2007, as i walked onto campus for packet pick-up, i soo did not feel like a junior. it hasn't hit me yet. i guess i just need that extra 23 days in between to get me ready (and my schedule). but i know it'll hit once they pile on the homework and the teachers get all "SAT! COLLEGE! GRADES! EXTRA CURRICULAR ACTIVITIES! MORE SAT!" on us. it's just that i wish every school day would be like how today was...

you walk onto campus and do what you need to do (which was picking up packets today), wait for friends to show up, talk/have fun, hang out with really cool teachers, and not have to worry about anything. ah, if only school were that simple. it's not that i dread school starting because really i don't (i promise). it's just that i'm __________. i can't exactly fill in the blank. worried? tired? apathetic? i don't know. something. you know?

this year will be different, no doubt. but hey, change happens. to sum up the very wise words i received from mr. ramirez today: "yeah, change happens. people don't like it, but it happens. you just gotta go with it and, well, change with it. it's the only way you'll grow." i gotta learn to adapt...

but yay for seeing mr. viramontes today, too! and of all the days that ms. sizer wasn't at school, it had to be today. booo. oh well. i was dreading telling her jeff's not coming back anyway. she's gonna go ballistic. i should hide all her markers.

Monday, August 13, 2007

to all the leftys out there...

happy left-handers day! although i may not be a lefty myself, i used to find the way they write fascinating. isn't it annoying having your words semi-covered while you write? and not having access to left-handed scissors when you need them? i've tried writing with my left hand and learned that i am far from ambidextrous. an, stephen, albert, chuckie finster, i tip my hat to you.

Sunday, August 12, 2007

how in the world...

you know, i really don't understand how a person can get bruises without knowing where they came from. that person, of course, being myself. and there's three bruises to be exact. one on my left ankle, one on my right knee, and one on my left thigh. the one on my ankle could possibly be from when i kinda missed the step when i was walking out of the movie theater, but i honestly don't know. i guess some things will always remain a mystery. like why glue doesn't stick to the inside of the glue bottle...

we've got a connection here.

Saturday, August 11, 2007


dude, mission aborted. i was getting ready to be completely knocked out once head met pillow, but that soo did not happen. i kinda just laid there pointlessly for a while then resorted to my ipod to make me sleepy, but it was useless. i think in a way it kinda woke me up more. argh, this is frustrating. i wanna sleep, but i can't.

and my sister talking on the phone with her boyfriend kinda factors into the whole "i can't sleep" thing. i wonder if counting sheep will help any. but that's lame. why not elephants? that's more exciting. but then...that'd wake me up more. how complicated could this be?!

let's give it another shot. hopefully my dog won't jump on me this time...

and so...

(possibly) for the first time this entire summer, i will be sleeping before 11 o'clock. my legs ache and my eyes are doing this weird thing where they kinda won't stay open. so i'm assuming the best thing to do is shut them for the rest of the night. clever, aren't i? hopefully this weird mood that has come over me will be gone by morning. it bugs. alright, homework day tomorrow. i'm wondering if i can finish everything by the end of the day. let's try, shall we? but i'll wait to worry about that once the sun comes up. goodnight, world.

Friday, August 10, 2007

around and around.

have you ever had a sudden urge to do something completely out of the blue? an urge that would've made you go crazy if you didn't get to do that certain something? well, after today i can say that i have. i had an urge to run. it was weird, considering i hadn't run since who knows when. and the second before this aforesaid urge surfaced, i was lying on my parents bed watching full house with the thought of physical activity miles away from my brain. nevertheless, i'm glad i got out and ran. it felt good (even though i was much more tired afterwards than i should've been).

i ran to school from my house, sat outside school, ran in and around the school, walked around the school, sat in the grass at school, and thought. i think that's what i like most about running (besides the whole "it's healthy for you thing"). i get to think. after i left school i headed back home and stopped to rest at the park. my thinking process went into overdrive there. it was good though. then a little while after i left the park jeff called and i talked to him the rest of the way home (with loud, annoying trucks, construction workers speaking spanish, and music playing from cars all in the background). i walked around my elementary school for a while, too. i wasn't paying attention to my surroundings much, but it still seemed different. in a really weird way. hm.

and then i came home with enough time to take a shower before gilmore girls started :)

the boggle department.

i'm really full right now. it feels weird.
my wireless internet is finally not being lame.
i think i'll move to my room. i need to lie down.
favorite song right now: brown eyed blues - adrian hood.
i've listened to this song approximately 1987259 times.
and that's just today alone.
argh, i wanna watch rush hour 3. tomorrow hopefully :)
and becoming jane. yay chick-flicks.
i had the most fun i've ever had in a really really really loooongggg time
we're hoping for a repeat.
you know, i'm glad i'm not feeling guilty right now..
otherwise i'd be freaking out.
yeah or yea? that still confuses me.
i like making new friends. err...getting closer to acquaintances.
prplepiratelover: ahh happiness rocks
hooray for happy friends!
i hate when my phone vibrates. it's like a lightning shock. -_-
i felt accomplished ;)
let's go out to dinner guys.
i feel like getting dressed up. and i wanna go out.
i think my phone is ringing. hm.
i should answer. dum dee dum...
yay albertacos. bye!

Thursday, August 09, 2007


i could listen to this all day. and i most likely will. gosh, he's amazing. seriously, you should listen to all the songs he does on piano. they're amazing. ahhhh :)

Saturday, August 04, 2007

Thursday, August 02, 2007

the youngest.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GABY!! aw, the youngest of the fantafour finally caught up ;) haha. now we're all sixteen! it's funny though. cause even though she's the youngest, she'll be getting her license before the rest of us. hahaha. can you say roadtrip?! klashdg; this is one of the few times i can't wait until we're older :D

p/s: sprawling on the floor at her house is ridiculously fun. i think it's something everyone should get to do at least once in their life. HAHA.


Wednesday, August 01, 2007


i don't know how i did it, but i did. this morning i started reading zen in the art of writing at around 12:00. and once i picked that book up, i couldn't stop reading it. IT WAS SO GOOD. i really, really liked it. before i read this book, i already had a strong respect for bradbury as a writer, but now....i'm in even more awe of him. so from 12:00 to 4:30, all i did was read. nonstop. (well, except for lunch and the occasional bathroom break). and then i stopped reading at 4:30 cause my mom and i went out for about 2 hours. and when i came back, guess what i did? read some more! haha. so from 6:30 to 10:30 i read. and finished it! that soo wasn't my plan. i was going for a 3-day reading schedule for this book. but yay for not following this schedule!

dude, he makes me want to be a writer.

nothing is ever lost.

"what do you want more than anything else in the world? what do you love, or what do you hate?"

"we know how fresh and original is each man, even the slowest and dullest. if we come at him right, talk him along, and give him his head, and at last say, what do you want? (or if the man is very old, what did you want?) every man will speak his dream. and when a man talks from his heart, in his moment of truth, he speaks poetry."

"how strange--we're so busy looking out, to find ways and means, we forget to look in."

"be certain of this: when honest love speaks, when true admiration begins, when excitement rises, when hate curls like smoke, you need never doubt that creativity will stay with you for a lifetime."

"look at yourself then. consider everything you have fed yourself over the years. was it a banquet or a starvation diet? who are your friends? do they believe in you? or do they stunt your growth with ridicule and disbelief? if the latter, you haven't friends. go find some."

"ugliness is a concept we happen on later and become self-conscious about."

"do we want the stars? we can have them. can we borrow cups of fire from the sun? we can and must and light the world. everywhere we look: problems. everywhere we further deeply look: solutions."

"self-consciousness is the enemy of all art, be it acting, writing, painting, or living itself, which is the greatest art of all."

"we are cups, constantly and quietly being filled. the trick is knowing how to tip ourselves over and let the beautiful stuff out."


"there is only one type of story in the world. your story."

- quotes from zen in the art of writing by ray bradbury.

pure genius.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ANJELICA!! argh, seeing her only once every year isn't gonna cut it. dinner date, anyone?! (with all four this time!!)