love heals.

Like a breath of midnight air. Like a lighthouse, like a prayer. Like the flicker and the flare the sky reveals. Like a walk along the shore that you've walked a thousand times before. Like the oceans roar. Love heals. There are those who shield their hearts. Those who quit before they start; who've frozen up the part of them that feels. Don't freeze your heart. In the dark they've lost their sight. Like a ship without a star in the night, but hold on tight. Love heals. When you feel like you can't go on. Love heals. Hold on to love, it'll keep you strong. Love heals. When you feel like you can't go on. Love heals. Hold on to love, and it will bring you home. Love heals when pain's too much to bear. When you reach out your hand, and only the wind is there. When life's unfair. When things like us aren't to be. Love heals when you feel so small, like a grain of sand--like nothing at all. When you look out at sea, that's where love will be. That's where you'll find me. You'll find me. So if you fear the storm ahead, as you lie, you lie awake in bed and there's no one, no one, no one there to stroke your head. And your mind, your mind, your mind reels. If your face is salty wet, and you're drowning in regret, just.... Don't forget: Love heals. When you feel like you cant go on. Love heals. Love, love, love is gonna carry you home. Love heals. When you feel like, when you feel like you can't go on. Love heals. Hold onto love and it will lead you home. Love heals.

uncoordinated.

ever run into something right in front of you even when you knew perfectly well it was there? yeah, i have. not cool. haha. but let's turn this into a meaningful blog, shall we? yes, let's shall. alright.. uncoordinated. that's me in a nutshell. i'm not good at balancing things out and kepping things going at the same time. not necessarily multi-tasking like doing homework, listening to music, and eating at the same time. but just things in general. just balancing my life. it always seems like whenever something good happens, something bad has to follow it. it doesn't always work out that way, but occasionally it does. like now for instance. i'm getting closer to older friends again and losing partial grip on the ones i've been close with at present. but whatever. it'll work out sooner or later. and then a huge earthquake will come and shake my world back into an unbalanced state once again. haha. just kidding. la la la...

just try, please.

aside from the fact that as i sit here surrounded by my agenda, a pile of textbooks waiting to be cracked open, and loose papers from random subjects not yet completed, i can't help but feel that life is finally how i've wished it to be for the past 3 weeks. these past weeks i've been out of it; i haven't been myself. some may have noticed, some may have not. yes, i was sick, but not just the sneezing, coughing, shivering, funny-sounding voice kind of sick. i was sick of school. sick of homework. sick of people. and sick of how things were going in general. but suddenly, it finally hit me. my life is good. great, in fact. i should be thankful for eveything i have and not waste my time being.. whatever i was being. despite what i may feel at the moment, i've got it better than a lot of people. i've got the most incredible family and the most amazing friends. i could never ask for more. so now, as i look back and remember how terrible i felt, i know now that i'd hate to see other people having a bad week, a bad day, or just a bad hour. you can do a lot to make people feel a thousand times better. if you see someone having a bad day, try and help them. a lot of people don't try and do anything when they see someone in a bad mood cause they're scared that the person would just get angry since they're already in a bad mood. when, really, it'd brighten their day like no other if you'd simply talk to them. maybe just a simple hug, a few kind words, or just a little smile from across the room can help more than you think it can. i know it did for me.

class committee.

+ kelsy! i love us =)
AMAZING job on movie night, guys. this year will be a good year together. i can feel it.

our message.

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good people.

and now, i disgust myself.

...so, i'm sitting at the computer while i should be lying in bed. and not just lying. sleeping. -_- i had a three-day weekend where i had all the time in the world and, yet, i'm still up at 1 in the morning doing homework. i need to get my priorities straight.

my best friend.

When everything is wrong I'll come talk to you
You make things alright when I'm feeling blue

You are such a blessing and I wont be messing
with the one thing that brings light to all of my darkness.

There is no other one that can take your place
I feel happy inside when I see your face
I hope you believe me
Because I speak sincerely
and I mean it when I tell you I need you.

My Best Friend - Weezer

everyone needs a best friend, right? it doesn't matter if you have three of them or just one. just as long as you know that you have someone that will always be there for you no matter what. as for me, i've got the most amazing best friend in the universe. i've got that one person i can talk to about absolutely anything. someone that can make me laugh. someone who can turn my day around like no other. i never ask for any sympathy because i don't think i need any. but when i'm having a bad day my best friend knows exactly how to make me feel better. by just being there. talking about normal things. you have no idea how good it feels knowing someone's always got your back. whatever i'm going through my best friend will be there. guaranteed. and that's what this is all about. trust. with friendship comes trust. without trust, what kind of friendship is that? i'd trust this person with anything. without my best friend i don't know how i'd survive; literally. each and every day i try and make myself a better person so that i can make this person proud of me. but you know what's so amazing? i know my best friend is ALREADY proud me. i'm reminded each and everyday of this either directly or indirectly. and i don't even know if this person notices it :] i try and see the world in a positive point of view so that i won't bring my best friend down. cause we're connected; in some way or another. if one of us is having a bad day, we'll both be in a not-so-great mood cause we don't want the other one feeling down. and when we're happy, we're both VERY happy. haha :D but we're different in a lot of different ways too. but that's how we keep things interesting. =) and despite the fact that i can never get homework done while we talk.. it's all good. haha. cause of course you're more important than homework ;) i've never hated my best friend and i never will. i respect this person soo much. and nothing will ever change that.

i've told you countless of times how amazing i think you are and i meant it every single time i said it. thank you for everything. i'll always be here for you. never forget that. where would i be without you? i don't even wanna think about that. if i lose you, i don't know what i'd do. anyway, thanks again. for everything :)

sigh.

today was a day unlike any other. thanks to everyone who tried to make me feel better. i appreciate it.

names.

hmmkimlysthinkin [11:42:37 PM]: how 's life, alexa?
you have no idea how much that threw me off. hahahh. no one has called me that since.. i don't even know. oh wait, since the first day of school. when all the teachers were learning names and calling role. they called alexa. :) anyway, i don't know. it just got me thinking. i'd rather go by athena cause i don't know anyone else with that name. i like it that way. cause when someone calls my name, i know they're calling me. although, these days, rona now responds to my name. hahah. ;) and apparantley, alexa doesn't fit me. i never thought so either, but then when i ask, people say it doesn't fit me. athena's better, no? i think so.


random blog, i know.