Thursday, October 04, 2012


i am torn... torn between the thoughts in my head and the emotions in my heart. between the evident misalignment of your words and your actions. between my will to keep fighting and my growing need to stop.

i am torn between my insecurities and the people who feed them. torn between the past and the present, the present and the future. torn between knowing what i want and wanting what i knew.

i am completely and utterly torn.

my heart can't break anymore. please stop breaking my heart.

fool for love.

fool me once, shame on you. fool me twice, shame on me.

Wednesday, October 03, 2012

low point.

ever have one of those moments where you just put your head on your desk and cry? neither did i until, like, now. why is life so hard...

thoughts & things.

1. to whoever invented chai tea lattes, i love you.
2. to whoever left that wad of gum under the desk i sat at today, i hate you.
3. i spent $200 today alone. only $50 of that was necessary (gas). the rest... well, i have issues (retail therapy).
4. i'm moving in exactly 16 days and i have yet to start packing any of my crap. i'm doomed.
5. thing i learned this weekend: forgiving is easy, forgetting is hard.
6. i tried to start breaking bad, but i couldn't get into it. (sorry everyone in the world)
7. there was a new puppy at work today and he was sooo cute, but he made a run in my sweater. dilemma.
8. i think i've been using the word "bleak" incorrectly my whole life.
9. i dont think i would mind it being so hot if i could actually go to the beach more often, but since i can't, i'm over it.
10. pizookies make everything better.

is it friday yet?