Saturday, June 02, 2007
yeah. kinda. maybe. not really. yes! wait...
"the whole purpose of places like starbucks is for people with no decision-making ability whatsoever to make six decisions just to buy one cup of coffee. short, tall, light, dark, caf, decaf, low-fat, non-fat, etc. so people who don't know what the heck they're doing or who on earth they are, can, for only $2.95, get not just a cup of coffee but an absolutely defining sense of self: tall. decaf. cappuccino." - you've got mail.
paper or plastic? chocolate or vanilla? beach or pool? hot or cold? singing or dancing? curly fries or regular fries? sneakers or flip-flops? running or walking? roses or daises? ipod or camera? saving or spending? mine or yours? there are a bajillion decisions we have to make in life and sometimes it's not that easy to choose. trust me, i know.
so i've seen you've got mail just about a thousand times. whenever it's on i watch it with my mom. it's a cute movie. i never paid attention to this part before despite the countless number of times i've seen the movie. but i hadn't watched it in a while and now...i can relate to it. it's amusing actually. i like it when i can make decisions easily. cause then i won't have to struggle with my ridiculous indecisiveness. yeah, i complain about being indecisive a lot (and i thank you for putting up with it), but it's probably one of the first things i would want to change about myself. cause i'd very much like to choose between things without having to resort to the ever-so-popular "i don't care". translation: "i can't choose to save my life, so you can choose for me". coming off as apathetic works a lot of the time. unless of course you're dealing with another indecisive person who also "doesn't care". because then it just turns into a never-ending "what do you wanna do? i don't care. whatever you wanna do. i don't know what to do. i'll do what you wanna do..." haha. yeah, i've had these conversations many, many times before.
anywho, maybe i'll get better at this whole indecisive thing over time. who knows. but for now, i'm off to struggle with the decision of whether to do history or english. at least i've made the decision to actually attempt homework. one decision down, a million more to go in life. it's a start.